I know you’re struggling a bit today. Again with a life full of blessing and a hole. You miss him and are ready for him to be back in your life; however, you know if this is to ever to work again, he has to be ready too. You can’t push him to be ready or make him see the changes. This is about balance and equality.
The tough truth is you have to be patient and you have to keep the faith. I know these aren’t your strong mental muscles. I also know that you are amazing at whatever you set your mind to. All this is uncomfortable, touches a deep sore spot, and brings up your old patterns. You will dig deep and hold the changes.
Hugs, my amazing dearest self.
All my love.