“Everything will be alright in the end so if it is not alright it is not the end.”
~ Patel, The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel
Today seems destined to be full of minor frustrations–especially given I’m going on no sleep. I miss having you to lean on, for that little extra bit of support. Knowing you’ve got me, that you’d step in if I asked it.
Instead, I’m trying hard not to be a burden. To not ask too much of friends and family. To not be the sad little figure all alone. I have struggled to let others be there for me in the past–even you. Especially you at the last.
When I lean on others, I feel helpless. When I don’t, I miss out on the support I need. I don’t want to be strong; I just don’t want to be pathetically sad either. Is there some nice middle ground where I can mourn what I’ve lost while getting excited about my future?
All my love.